I'm not much of a texter but If I like talking to you, I won't mind at all. you'll know if I like talking to you because I have texted you at least 2 or 3 times that day and it wasn't about something important or I needed to ask you a question about something. But If you're gonna text me, and I'm gonna text you, well damnit you better have something to say! If you don't know how to respond to my text, or don't have anything to say me, don't freaking text me! The most common example I seem to have is when someone initiates a text conversation such as "what's up?" with me and I reply with something that's more interesting than "nothing much" and they give me some stupid response that shows that they having nothing to say which means they just wasted my time. For instance:

From: Random Person

What's up?

Sent:

Nothing much, still recovering.

From: Random Person

Oh what happened?

Sent:

Well I was on a roadtrip across the state with some friends when I was kidnapped by a gang of midget clowns. I managed to escape but they chased me down and I had to swim across a lake but eventually I hitched hike with a biker gang and they let me off that this bar and I got in a fight with a couple of drunks when I beat them at poker, intiated a bar fight and got away when I stole some guys motorcycle. I got in some trouble with a hooker, sold some drugs, fought a pimp and took over his hoes for a while until the police busted us. I wasn't letting them get me though so I led them on a chase that resulted in 100 fatalaties and 5 explosions but I ran into a truck full of chickens and I was tazed by 5 cops. But that's cool cuz my schizophrenic cell mate helped me escape and we broke into a costume store and wore some disguises. I realized I didn't have any money so I had to break dance on the street for a few days until I had enough money for the bus back home. I finally made it, bought some cotton candy and took a shower.

From: Random Person

oh that's cool.

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A little over the top eh? Yeah I know but it might as well be the truth with some of the conversations I had -_-. You gotta have more to say to me than that. There's a few people that I'll let get away with that (Michael from class if you read this you're one of them ^_^) but usually it gets on my damn nerves.

I love Halloween. I was planning my costume over the summer, that's how much I love it. One day I was sitting home bored out of my mind when I just decided to draw out what I wanted to be. That's when I decided to take action. I finished drawing it in my Algebra class the next day and my friends thought it was really good idea so who was I for Halloween? Let's find out.

I had a red messenger hat that I never really wore much and it was perfect for this. All I had to do was find a white patch and get some red paint and sew it on to the hat. The next step was finding some overalls. That was the hardest thing. I couldn't find them anywhere and when I did, they were for little kids. One day I went to Elizabeth and checked out the local Thrift Store and wallah! A pair of blue overalls (even better) size small for five dollars. I already had a red shirt and some boots so I was good to go. A few days before Halloween, my friend Mr. Double Y (Ronald) and I went to party city and other halloween stores so I could find a mustache and some white gloves. So who was I?

It's-a Me-a Mario!

That night I got into costume and my cousin and uncle took pictures of me. I passed out some candy and it was strange because the little kids on my block are always outside. ALWAYS. no matter the weather or time of day but today there weren't many kids trick-or-treating. I guess everyone decided to go to bigger neighborhoods -_-.  Well, I had planned to hangout with some other friends and maybe go to the mall and take the bus to a haunted house or something but that blew over so I called up my friend Valerie and asked if I could stop by with my dog Polo. I got a lot of attention while I was walking there lol. A LOT. She took a picture of me in her kitchen and we talked for a while.

Valerie has a dog named Moomoo. He was trying to sniff Polo for most of the time we were there. After a while they got  used to eachother and whatnot

That's moomoo.

So Valerie and I laughed a lot and ate cookies and hershey kisses. Her older sister Franchie came in and played with the dogs and then left to hang out with her friends. She was going to some Halloween event for 21 and over. Her brother O.J (Oscar) and his friends came in from trick-or-treating and hung out with us for a while. Oscar's a sophomore in high school and his friends are in middle school. His friend in 8th grade was a little outgoing and was kinda hitting on me a bit. Oscar had the best lines of the night because in response to his friends behavior he would say "Dude stop flirting with Raquel, she's too old for you." and "She's in college, she's out of your league" lol.

Me, Oscar and his friends watched Paranormal activity (Valerie didn't want to watch it) and we all talked some more until we had to go pick up Valerie's younger sister Cathy from work. Cathy works at the Dunkin Donuts in our town and she's a junior in high school. It was after 10:00 at night so it was fairly empty and quiet in our town. Valerie had still had the large hard rollers in her hair because she died her hair before I came over. When she pulled into the parking lot she got some weird looks from the people standing outside. I went in to get Cathy while Valerie stayed in the car with the dogs.

I got some looks and a couple of chuckles from the guys standing by the door as I went in. I had wanted to see my friend Corey, he's 21 and a senior at William Patterson University. The times that I've been to DD at weird hours (usually around 2:00 am) he's infront of it hanging out with a few friends smoking a cigarette. My friends Brunette and Estefania were on shift today. Brunette goes to UCC and Estefania...i don't think she's in school right now but anyway she was a vampire. She had wiped the make-up off before I got there though. So Cathy comes out and her costume was hilarious. She was a woopie cushion.

It was a long wait because they had to clean up everything. Some guys in came in with maks and face paint and then one girl came in wearing kitty ears. She said she liked my costume and we talked for a while. I told her how I was a cat last year also. Me and two of my friends Chastin (Who I was talking to on the phone on the way to Valerie's house) and Jessica had went to Chuck E. Cheese and it was awkard because here we are, a bunch of older girls wearing a cat, witch and zombie costume, in Chuck E Cheese playing games and eating pizza..alone...with no child...while trying to get free salad. We got some strange looks that night. But, I got some free munchkins and a donut and we made our way home. I got home at about 11:30 and even though my original plans were ruined, it was still a fun night.

Random pictures:

hmm, I wonder what I should be next Halloween?

This is more of a sequel to my last blog about "Randy" and "Peter". In all my classes I was thinking about everything that has happened involving those two and I feel like I have some type of weird closure. Peter only likes me, it's not a huge, enormous, superbly strong like, but he likes me. He wants to get to know me but I don't want him to advance. Knowing this had been stressing me out more than I would have liked and I was wondering why. While I was walking it hit me; I've been losing my mind over my situation with Peter because he reminds me of my ex. I try talking to him, etc but I thought I was being an asshole because I wasn't giving him a chance. I thought I didn't like him because of stupid petty reasons because of the way he dresses or whatever. That still slightly bothers me but it's not the main problem. I don't want him to advance with me because even though he's a nice guy, and he's not a bad person, letting him try to reach me as more than a friend just won't work out. He reminds me of my ex Roger. Me and Roger are still friends to this day but I knew from the beginning that I shouldn't have let our relationship get any further than friendship. Me and Roger have a few things in common and we can talk to eachother but it doesn't flow as well as it could, and our friendship didn't really seem like it was going far to begin with. It's the same thing with Peter.

Just like my ex, Peter and I just don't click in that way and our "relationship" shouldn't be allowed to grow any further than the friendship zone. I also believe that if he wants to continue a friendship, I think it will stay at the same level it as now: more than an acquaintance but no where near a good friend. I don't want to let him continue thinking he has a chance and then eventually force myself into a relationship that was doomed from the begining (because sometimes you can just like someone because they like you).I've decided that I'm going to tell Peter that I'm just not interested in that way. Before I was going to just let it fade like the other girl did, but he seems more persistent with me and that wouldn't fair to him. I would just be leading him on, so I want to clarify how I feel now.

As for Randy, well I don't really care how he feels about me. I'm serious. I also don't care if my crush for him grows. I don't care if I wind up falling in love with him (ha, I'm pretty sure i've never been in love before..I think..). I say this because right now none of that matters. I was given a good friend and I want to cherish that. I want to take life as it comes and if our friendship ever does develop into something more, then I'm completely fine with that, but right now he's a wonderful friend that I don't want to lose.